This is me.

One of my favorite songs today is "This is me by Camp Rock", not because my life now is similar to what the meaning of song but because I wanted someday, this song to be the song of my life.

This is me by Camp rock

I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

 

I look forward to the time that I am exactly where I'm suppose to be. To some place where I LOVE what I do and I savor every moment of it. Somewhere I can show who is the "real me".

 

Breaking the silence.

After a few weeks of silence, I thought I could really get away with the noise that is continuously bothering my life right now but it seems that everyone is speaking with loud voices that I can't take it anymore.

I have been very vocal about my thoughts and feelings on whatever topic or issue that I had gone through. I don't know if I have been too vocal about it but I know that its my way of breaking the chain that forcefully keeping me in pain.

At this moment, I am still having second thoughts if I will still be writing things like this but I feel that if I stop I will suddenly burst! 

Life is truly full of drama, no one can escape that but anyone can surpass it. I cannot say that I am completely happy with what is happening with my life right now but I am just a bit disappointed because I am in a place where I cannot do anything but to survive. It is like living underwater where I cannot breath.

Chained.

Locked.

Imprisoned.

I want freedom!


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*I am back and I am ready to make noise again!