As I was going through my life, re-reading my past, I just realized that I had clues that we weren't meant for each other. Every smile, every words, every feeling that we shared were forced to exist. It was painful, yes but it made me realize I did own a heart, I had feelings too, and that I was not an ice queen.
I am very thankful that I once had a chance to know what love means. As people say, its better to love than not love at all. I don't know what is left for me in the future but what I do know is, life is so beautiful to be wasted.
I know you would tell, 'I told you so, you will get angry with me.' Yes, I am angry with you and what you did to me but I will never regret anything. You were right, I'll hate you. As I rediscover myself, I am hating you more. I told you, I just need to go through the process of moving on and right now, I am in the anger phase.
Every friend I talk to, they all tell me that I made the right decision and that you are not worth it. I know it now. They unanimously agree that you will do no good to me, I may refuse to believe it before but now, you have already proven it to me. You have no right to know anything about me anymore. You are not a friend, you are a stranger now.
But the whole circus is not all about your faults, I know am part of it and I knew what I was and what I've become every time I was with you. I am this nice girl that guys never liked. All along I thought I was never nice and I'll just wake up one day living the life of a nice girl.
I want to say sorry to myself. I lost who I am because I was so in love and blinded. I changed to a person who I never thought I will be. I've lost ME. I knew it.
Hearing our break-up song right now brings no emotions anymore, just memories of our past that you choose to give up. I am getting better, I know I can survive this ordeal. I am that girl.
I look forward to my beautiful life ahead, with all my friends and family.
I know one day, I will meet that one person who is really meant for me.
I know one day, I will have that 'and they live happily ever after'
I know he will come to my life to make me realize that all my heartaches are worth it because a lifetime of happiness is just right ahead of me.
I know God is writing my own love story now and when I'm ready He will drop him in my life.
