Angels Cry

Inspired by Angels Cry by Mariah Carey.

Nasa van na ako sitting pretty dun sa front row, nakikinig ng Angels Cry by Mariah Carey, medyo mahina lang yung sounds ko, enough lang for me then biglang may guy na may kausap sa cellphone na nasa second row ng van. Nung una, hindi ko masyado naintindihan yung sinasabi then biglang tahimik sa van, narinig ko na yung usapan.

"...tapusin na natin to kung ganun.."

"...you were never there for me when I need you..."

"...hindi mo ako kinayang ipaglaban diyan.."

"...kung ganun hindi ko na ilalagay sa birthcertificate niya yung name ko.."

"...wala kang pagpapahalaga sa pamilya.."

"...okay lang naman sayo na watakwatak ang pamilyang kalalakihan niya..."

"...hindi ka marunong makinig, you never listen.."

"...eto na ang last call ko, i will never text you again..."

best line ever:

"... for seven years, I never stop loving you.."

Namen! di ba? tama bang bumanat ng mga ganito sa van, sa isang public utility vehicle?? I mean this is a personal and private thing di ba? pero anyways, hindi naman siya hysterical or what, on the contrary, he is very calm that time which is weird pero baka dahil matured na siya so he handled it very well. BUT still!!

No one can judge him since the conversation was one-sided..masyado lang emo..nilakasan ko nga yung volume ng music ko eh, rinig pa din! kaloka. Sakto pa yung song of the week ko para sa guy na yun.

Ayun, may isang girl passenger na naki-usi (usisa)

"...masakit pero that's life..." --banat ng guy

Kaya naman, i dedicate this song for that guy in the van.

I shouldn't have walked away
I would've stayed if you said
We could've made everything OK

But we just
Threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I'm still on the ground...

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Super natural love conquers all
'Member we used to touch the sky
And

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

gusto ko lang ishare ito

Change

It is really true when they said that there is nothing permanent in this world except death and change.

I am working for more than a month (with my dream company) and I know I changed a lot already. Probably an after-effect or whatsoever but I am still glad for everything, and of course thankful as well.

I am doing things now that I don't usually do before like watch news (intently), read newspapers (not just the lifestyle section or entertainment section but all sections) and be aware of EVERYTHING as in everything that is happening around me and our country (for this matter). Well, its a welcome change and I really never thought that I will be doing "this" in the future but here I am!

Some people were asking me if my current work is toxic and I proudly say, YES! Sounds ironic? but I am still happy. I am aware that there is no easy work in this world. Every job entails effort and hard work.

I don't have an idle time. Every moment should be productive and every minute is important.

Excellence. Passion. Maturity.

Excellence. I love the fact that I am surrounded by people who really strive for "excellence". It creates an overwhelming feeling on my part. Its fueling up my drive to do the same, to strive for excellence and to meet the "high standards".

Passion. You will really see their passion and love for the work that they do every day. You will see how professionalism exist beyond the things that they wear or the things that they own. I was once blinded by the real meaning of professionalism, blinded by people whom I thought are worth looking up to.

Maturity. I am not saying this because I am with my dream company already and I am in a perfect world and all but I am saying this because I know now how to look the other side of the coin. There is no perfect world but there is always a certain perspective that will change how you accept reality.

Beyond the demand of my work, I still have time for myself, my friends, and my family. I even learn how to give myself a little reward for all the effort I did for the whole week.

I am happy.

**Every time that I will feel like I am losing the "passion" I will revisit this blog and reminisce the feeling that motivates me to work passionately.**

 

DD for Disaster Day

Like what the title says, today is my disaster day. Muntik ko ng mapakyaw ang disaster sa buong mundo (**exagge lang).

Anyways!

D1: Uber sa traffic sa lugar namin dahil may umararo ng fence ng SB sa may Nitang Street. Isang bus na ewan ko kung lasing ba o ano eh. Eto ang naging cause ng pagkalate ko ng 36 minutes! Saan ka pa!

D2: Nakatulog ako sa FX at dahil nga traffic ang daan nagshort cut (na parang longer cut pa siya!) I have a feeling na matagal tagal na akong nakatulog so i thought malayo na ang narating namin. Nagising ako. Pag tingin ko sa labas, nagulat ako dahil unfamiliar place ang nabungaran ko! Nagpanic ako! "Nasaan na ako?! Nalagpas na ba ako sa GMA?! OMG!". Inaayos ko na ang upo ko at ang bag ko. Muntik ko ng itanong sa driver kung nakalagpas na ng GMA at bago pa ako tuluyang magpanic to the highest level! lumabas na sa Main road ang FX. I was relieved at the same time disappointed dahil hindi pa din pala kami malapit sa EDSA! Malupit!

*buti na lang at di ako nagtanong dahil kung hindi magkakaroon ako ng kahihiyan.

D3: Uwian na. I was expecting to meet with my friends kaso may mga lakad na sila (dahil nga holiday bukas). Bigla naman akong nakafeel ng something..hmm.. empty feeling?! Weird nga eh dahil in my 22 years of existence dun ko lang yun naisip.. ang hanapin ang wala pa sa akin.

D4: Nakasakay na ako ng tricyle, nang biglang tumigil dahil naubusan ng gas! what a life! Inalog pa ng driver yung tric para makaabot sa bahay namin at dahil nga nakaclassify ito as D4 ibig sabihin hindi siya umabot sa bahay namin. Mga 6 blocks pa ang nilakad ko. Kawawang tricycle driver dahil tinulak na nila ang tric palabas ng subdivision.

**hay.. DD talaga! Wala pa akong moment! aww..