Just Confused

Yes, I'm just confused over nothing. I really can't explain why, or how did I suddenly felt that. I was going over my journal and re-reading again and again the things that happened to me. It was an odd feeling doing it. It is like going back in time. But I felt lost.

    I am consistently confused. I can't help it. I can't move on to another step. I searching for clues everywhere to anyone and they didn't failed to give me one. But those clues doesn't have a slightest effect on me. It seems that I just don't want to acknowledge it, to accept it as a fact and I get confused why?

    I really want to get out of it soon. As soon as possible. Before everything is too late but there is something inside stopping me to do it. I can't explain. But I can feel it and I hate it. I hate being on a situation out of control. I hate doing things that I know at the end, I will be hurt and left alone. I hate the feeling. I hate it. I hate my self for that. But I.. I.. I am doing it.

  Can someone make me realize I'm doing the wrong thing? Can someone convince me to move now?

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"Don't make me fall if you have no intensions of catching me..."