Flooded

       I really can't believe that this is happening to me. One day I wake up okay and feeling fine then the next day.. just flooded by bad news that really makes me feel extremely sad and bothered.

        Just recently, a friend of mine left for the States. I thought that we will have a nice group for our thesis but I guess I was wrong. We are already planning together about it but it seems that our plans and dreams will just be shattered just like that. Another day came, that was not the only problem that we have... this time it is a bigger dilemma!

        Who would ever thought that an almost 3 years of having Psy 5 section would just end up being dissolved! Our section is not really a super-bonded section but somehow we already got to used with each other's attitude, we knew the different temperaments of one another and despite of that I guess we already accepted each other's unique personalities *even in our own little ways..* But our section will be dissolved in weeks time. Although it is not yet sure whether we are going to be distributed in other section or not but that reality is really disheartening. We are planning about our groupings for the coming thesis and practicum but they are slowly fading away. I would still want to be part of psy-5, I wanted to graduate together with my friends and blockmates, I wanted to appreciate them more and just treasure the moments.

          There are also things that you expect a lot from it and you knew deep in your heart that you did your very best to meet their expectations to produce something exceptional but after all your efforts... it would just end up... unappreciated... It is not as if I haven't experienced being "unappreciated" but this is quite different.. *oh well.. this does not concern anything about love!..just want to let you know so that you will not conclude anything malicious.*

         Slowly, it seems that I am being flooded by these kind of news that really makes me bothered and tense and extremely sad. I really wanted to shout out for "fairness" in this world but I guess, I will not be heard.  Life is never fair but we need to play it at our best. One day you thought you have these treasured things, the next day, those things are slowly stolen away from you by fate.