Blog 4

I can consider this week as one of the long weeks of the month and I am very sure there are a lot to come. As I reminisce the things happened for this week I barely recall the events because I thought it happened the previous week. Everyday is indeed a new day for me and different unplanned things are happening.

 

Monday: 090307

 

I was late for class that day (sh**)! The line for the fx was very long and it was already 7:00 am! My class starts at 8:00 am! So bottom line.. I WAS LATE. I even thought that I lost my I.D and I was really worried! Afterwards, Dah gave me back my I.D since it was accidentally dropped in her bag. I just discovered that this day is a not so lucky day for people (as if it’s a Friday the 13^th) according to a feng shui expert (?) I saw on t.v yesterday.

 

Tuesday: 090407

 

We tried to revise our chapter 1 and 2 so we went to school early. There were really no unforgettable events or a whatsoever-unluckiness-of-mine! I just slept for about 2 and half hours because of revising the chapters! (ok I really don’t want to stress my self now because of talking about school matters)

 

Wednesday: 090507

 

We did not report for work in SSC-R because we need to polish the chapters. We run from Gate A (of dapitan) to Psych Department just to passed the paper on time (at 4:00 pm actually!). I was so exhausted this day and we still need to do the social psych “research” (which is more like a mini-thesis for me!S*&^). I actually had a melted-ice-cream-like-brain!

 

Thursday: 090607

 

*this is the start of my spontaneous acts!

 

Me and love were in texting terms again for some boredom reasons! Anyways! In the fx terminal, we finally saw the Engineering student that we were waiting for a long time! It was like 3 months ago when we last saw this guy and because he is so cute, pau and I made a deal that if ever we will see him and we will ride in one fx (fx-mates!) we will talk to this guy and ask his name and “etc”. But unfortunately, he was a fx away from us because he got there first and we were like, “are we going to talk to him now or not?!”, but we were not able to that (sad :c). We just thought that, it was probably not the time, and we just promise next time we saw him, we will really do “it”!

 

I actually wanted a long sleep however I was not able to have one! I even felt bad that night because of the stress, pressure and “etc” that I was feeling and I just wanted to breakdown and cry but of course I know it won’t solve my problem, it won’t help me in doing our soc psy research proposal.

 

Song for the night: All I want is your love

                              With or without you (him) – U2

 

Friday: 090707

 

Stressful day finally meet its end.  We were in the jeepney when I saw the Eng guy walking in the side walk but I was not really sure if it was him because it was already dark and he was walking (I wasn’t able to follow his track) I told Pau about it but since I wasn’t sure, she thought I was just joking. So we went to the terminal and wait for the fx. After a while, here he comes!!! I told pau that the guy I saw was really him!!! Moment of madness for us because we need to decide whether we will ask for his name or what and I told Pau that she should ask him now while there were no people after him (meaning no one will see pau asking for his name). She went at the back and asked for the name because “we have a dare” and she was SOOOO tense!  She wasn’t able to ask other important details like year, course and surname. What we got is his name: Christian. Then afterwards, he seemed so in a hurry that he rode in a jeepney already and he looked tense also, as if we will rape him or something!  (duh?! As if!) Pau was successful in doing the dare! Woohoo! ;p kudos for pau!

 

Quote: Is the long wait exchange for something good? – Pau

 

Saturday: 090807

 

Friday was not the end of my spontaneity!

 

We reported for work and watched the pre-pageant. Afterwards, I went to Ateng’s house to meet up with the Masinop. We were so happy and we laughed-out our stress (specifically, I laughed-out my stress) and frustrations! I must admit, I was able to feel light and just simply happy, the stressful days that I had experienced already paid off! *thank you! Till next session mwuah!* I went home around 11pm, I thought my parents would scold me for that but luckily, they did not, my happy moment was not interrupted!

 

Pau and I were texting til around 2:30 am I guess (we were using our unlimited to its fullest!). And I really don’t know why I have this feeling that I can reveal my identity to love (out of no where!). I was actually thinking about it the previous days and I had convinced myself that nothing can be taken away from me if I tell my real name and section since my crush level for him went down weeks ago and I just feel that we were like friends(?!). So, as a result (sounds like thesis), I asked him if he still want to know my name and section and of course he said yes so I told him my name and section and that’s it! I even didn’t feel scared or tense or whatsoever. Pau felt the tension for me (haha! unfortunately). Of course, I don’t have any plans of letting him see me around (haha!) but no matter what, I guess it will just happen! If… it happens! I’m a bit sure that nothing will change after that, he would be the same old, passive guy I knew.

 

 

For the previous years of my life I can say that I was so very conventional, organized and I always plan my future actions but since this year came, I had realized that it would probably be a little exciting if your free and spontaneous, you really don’t plan for tomorrow or for the coming days but you just make the present day really worth while. I think that would be very exciting! Right?! I just hope it’s not too late to enjoy life!

 

Based on my experience for this week I have proven that if you have the chance to do things at this very moment, do it! Let’s not wait for fate, destiny or chance to do it for us. We are the one who is responsible for our future. Whatever we do now will affect our future (yes, I agree), that’s for sure but I guess, that is life, we just need to enjoy it because life is too short (yah, I know this line is very, very used already but it is true). We usually engrossed ourselves in planning for our “bright future” with out realizing that we can have a “bright present” instead! Before I enter the “real world” I can say that I have enjoyed my college life and every moment of my senior year is worth remembering! Haha!