thoughts

If I will be asked about my current status in life, I would compare it with a child's life.

A child that is forced by her mom to eat vegetables but really did not want to and since the child wanted to obey her mom she force herself to eat the vegetables and for her mom not to be disappointed, she will pretend that she is enjoying her food and all but deep inside, she is not anything at all. When she got used with the situation, she is always half-smiling, as in feeling 'incomplete'. She grows physically but not in the real sense of "living" a life.

A child who did good on her test but her mom says nothing about it as if it is just a normal thing. The child feels unappreciated and becomes demotivated to work on her school tasks, as a result she is not performing well and this is the time that her mom will say something to her and since she is your mom you cannot explain your side. You will end up getting use with the feeling of unappreciated.

Sad but true, I simply can't help but to see myself that way.