23 years

okay. now..i need to evaluate my life. 

what had happen for the past 22 years of my life existence?

when I was 5..

I was enrolled in a class of 20 students. I remembered being reprimanded for being late at the age of 5, imagine! haha! Well, as a result, I got very conscious of the time and I don't want to be late in class ever (which I was able to fulfill at least until HS)

when I was 10..

This is the time where I played 10-20, base to base and patintero with friends. I was in grade 4 and I've got lots of friends. I was also the class VP and I seriously performed my duty as the VP. Carefree and very joyous.

when I was 15..

I was in 2nd year HS. Learned the real meaning of "crush" (yihee!) and "infatuation" (really huh?!) I almost got there! (sayang) whew! and I learned how complicated "it" was but I felt that I was ready and that I can handle "it"

when I was 18..

I was in 2nd year college, taking up Psychology in my dream university. Seriously...searching! searching...searching...found! 1 virus threat! shocks! I got my first err...heartbreak(?)or so I thought but I learned to move on.

when I was 20..

I was getting ready for the "real world" and I'm so excited. Main goal: Get a stable job and for me to do it, I need to survive my dreaded 4th year in college and thank God I did it!

when I was 21..

I saw what the "real world" is. Knew the meaning of "unfair" and "dirty politics". I fought for my right...feeling and knowing "everything". I felt I need to make a stand and voice out myself, I did. And then,  I quit.

and now I am 22 going 23 (few days to go..thump..thump..thump)

A lot more is expected. A lot of things happened. My life turned three hundred sixty degrees, in a blink of an eye. I am proud to say that I am a little more tame and understanding and mature (? I believe so). I know when to stop and when to go. 

I have accepted that not all friends are for keeps.

...that you should have "self-respect"

...that letting go is the hardest thing to do 

...that from this day forward my life will be different. I will make it different. 

I can make a difference.