Unli Stupidity

I miss writing about my thoughts, feelings and rants for almost a year. Maybe I was just too busy to write or too pre-occupied with things or I am just satisfied with whatever I can write on my facebook and twitter account. I had a lot of sharing to do to make-up for the lost year :)

I've changed a lot. One of life's inevitable things. As my dear friend told me, I've upgraded  to version 2.0 of myself. I don't know if its a good thing or not but I will never regret anything (again and again). As much as I wanted every thing to flow smoothly, there will always be bumps along the way that I cannot help but to go through.

I am just feeling sad right now because I seem to not learn anything at all. I always make mistakes and unfortunately, same mistakes over and over again! I hate myself for that. I ask myself , why? why do I have to do it over again? I hate it! Questions that I know I cannot answer right now. Even if I try to correct the mistakes, I always seem to fail. Its so draining and so tiring. I'm tired. My mind is tired. My heart is tired.

I wanted to...badly...

I just remind myself that I need to live one day at a time and to always pray, pray and pray to get through this phase. Disappointing but I need to accept it, that's life!

#UnliStupidityandIhateIt

Dear God,
Please keep my mind and heart at peace. Free it from hatred, doubts and pain. I surrender everything to You. Keep the negative things off my mind and my heart. Lead me to the right path. Enlighten my life and give me enough strength to survive this challenge.
Amen